BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT

-SOMETHING MORE by SECONDHAND SERENADE

To my grandpa.

Hi Atuk, howwa you there? Kitaorg kat rumah ni semua rindu atuk macam biasa ah. Still ingat atuk ada mcm dulu dulu, *ok pls jgn nangis*Semua orang suruh chillax, baru atuk je yg meninggal belum parents lagi. Wakluu ah, you dont know him so jgn main ckp je. Seriously, he was like my dad. I'm very close to my grandparents. Makan pakai semua diaorg ah yang jaga, ibu sibuk. According to Ibu, I lived with my grandparents since I was 2. I still remember how they jaga me, aww so sweeet. Thats why, to me my grandparents are like my parents. So they all very important to me. No one can describe my feelings right now, I already lost a very important man in my life. So what am I supposed to do now? Laughing out loud? Jump and die? Tell me. This is so depressed.
I'm missing him like everyday, suaranya masih terngiang ngiang kat telinga ni. Susah nak lupakan. Susah susah. Kalau tgok nenek, nampaklah atuk jugak. dah mcm mana kan? Why atuk tinggalkan kitaorg mcm ni je? How we're going to celebrate this year punya raya, without you? tell me how? so unperfect okay. Tak sampai hati nak tinggal atuk sorang sorang kat kubur tu semalam. goddamit, i have to stop it. seriousy tak boleh mcm ni. i have to move on. like seriously move on. its hard at the beginning but i'm sure i can handle this. Me are so going to miss you atuk. you take care there k? i cant talk to you anymore, how sad i cant even listen to your voice anymore. urghh.

be strong tya be strong. Al Fatihah to you again Atuk. I love you always, thanks for eveyrthing.

AL FATIHAH

Ahad, 3.30 AM.
Atuk dah takda. Bukan takda untuk 2-3 minit, tp untuk selamanya.
Redha tya redha. Terima hakikat. Urgh, still not in the mood. Gonna write about this later.




Al Fatihah untuk Atuk, Mat Yunus <3
Semoga Roh dikelilingi dengan orang yang beriman.

10th of January

Waaaliao. Ok, Pn Suhaida called my mom last night. Well, its a bad news. Its about my class. Yeah, my PMR's result doesn't qualified enough to be in Science class. So she asked me to think whether I wanna join LK's class or Sastera's class. At that moment I was like goddamit, are you serious? NO NO! I got 6A okay for my PMR and you said it wasn't qualified enough? Lebih baik takyah ambik PMR mcm tu, buat penat study 24/7 but tak mendatangkan hasil apa apa. I was like so frustrated okay, seriously LK? Wowowo mintak jauh ah. Tak suka ok lukis lukis, i'm not that creative so pls la. Sastera pulak? Em, sastera.. malas nak describe beria sgt kang ada yg terasa but seriously mmg tak minat ah. So what should I do? I'm so stressed out! Mom you;re supposed to help me with this thing, you're older than me so I guess you know better. Urgh too complicated. So last night I can sleep, I was too busy thinking what will happen to me soon? Should I be an engineer or should I be nothing? Then finally I realized something, tak kisah ah nak jadi apa as long as I happy with my life.



So today, I choose LK as my class. Woo hello LK, I hope we have chemistry so that I can be easily love you and you can easily love me too :)
Ok then, I'm going to sleep now.

Bye,
TYAYAYAYA XD

Pertama

Hari pertama.

Masih okay, orientasi? quite fun. class? still tak dapat. sleepy? YES, MOST OF THE TIME.

goddammit, baru hari pertama kot. Chillax tya, this is just a beginning :)

You have to relax and accept the fact that the holiday is already over. Urghhhhhhh~

Kla, penat.

Bye.

Selamat, selamat, selamat

Hyeah, selamat kembali ke sekolah.

Homework, Teacher, Assembly, Skip class, Stayback.

Wuhoooo, can't wait to meet them. Semuga 2011 lebih bermakna :)

But, still risau actually. Taktau la dapat class mana. Just wait and see.

Hope I'm still in the same class with Meera, Ainun, Alya and Aina.

So, I gtg. Need to pack some stuff for tomorrow!

Bye!